Sally Keith Song from the Rain
Outside I hear the steady rain in tiers first on the tin roof, hitting like on a buckskin snare, then it drips, both high and crisp and from here this sounds like a hive. The cars streak by blurring it all. The yellow bus looks midnight blue. The sound of the rain is a knockingÑrelentless and gravity like something I canÕt undo. Inside the body the sound is full of mechanics and pipes and screws. It arrives early in morning as two lamps reflect in my dark windowpane. One lake map (the shape of something horrible, ragged in flight and impossible, with ripped wings) so small in its frame and the sound of the rain is crossing that lake in my mind, in a boat in heavy wind and in rain. Inside the sound and suddenly I notice what wanting may be. I ask what complexity is -- I ask what is joy -- and smaller drips hit what sounds like a stream fast moving, out from a gutter. It's nothing that floats, it's rusting blades on a fan; dumpsters of stones inside construction sites; a restaurateur's new shipment of spoons. The day before me is this rain, this game of darts where we throw for speed, we throw for force and to win. The sound goes softer, now like soaked skeins of unused yarn, blue hills, stacks of lost letters, a thrumming heater, a bass guitar, a glass of wine. If it gets any softer, I'll go (I promise myself). But the sound of the rain makes a war. I'm helpless against it. I'm like some desperate lover who runs the length of a state and then when she opens the door eyes like a stream, answer unmistakable. How it falls on me and it falls on me like rain, then more. As I hold up my arms to cover me as I cover my head in retreat the water gets everywhere. I run behind the house, where her garden of phlox is trampled after so much rain. Indistinguishable. The purple petals are lost in weeds of green. The rain is a quarry and sinking. The rain is a bathtub alone in a room. It sounds like consequence. It ends like steam.
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